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An Update From The Queen

Lately, I have been tired and engaged with new stuff. The routine, the job, the lifestyle, and a lot of other things have been overwhelming. The  basic  requirement had taken the front seat, and my passion was on the back seat for a while.  I am slowly learning to go back and forth between what I love doing and what I have to do. It will take some time, but I will, I know, find my way back to this.  I am not  exactly  in my zone. However, I have learned you have to mess things up before filtering  important  things and getting your life re-arranged. I wish I could sit and tell many more things, but I have some commitments to adhere to because of duty calls.  I feel like a new person this year, and I am happy with leading a normal and less chaotic life. It’s  amazing  how refreshing one feels without baggage. I have so many thoughts to pen down, but all of them are unorganized, and I have to mentally compartmentalize things.  I wasn’t sure if I wanted to continue writing here. But I hav
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I am going to Zip it because unfolding a drama is more interesting!

There is one thing that I strongly disagree with my therapist is the concept of love. She is a hopeless Romantic and believes in lovey-dovey things, and I don't buy it. Oh yes, I decided to take therapy for a reasonable amount of time because fighting my demons alone was becoming too much for me.  Well, back to the topic. According to her, a major part of one’s heart belongs to the partner. She literally drew and explained it to me during a session. Surprisingly, there was no room for her in those sections of the heart and it baffled me the most. I decided not to ask or point it out to date because that’s her perception and I don’t want to rob her of her thoughts. She had different battles than me, so it kind of makes sense why someone would choose to sell the idea of love. That’s how I felt every time she spoke about love. It was almost as if I was listening to a romantic movie narration.  However, I am learning how to not comment and share my mind in a situation where it will que

Tell Me, How Do You Fight Your Fears??

As a kid, I was afraid of the dark. Decades ago, sleeping around 11 was considered late. Watching television till late hours was counted as a luxury, and it was worth it. Now, because everyone in my home has the habit of sleeping around 10 PM. I was the only one watching Saturday night movies during school days. I used to run after switching off everything, thinking something would chase me from the dark if I didn't reach my room quickly. Every one of us has done that! I grew up a little and my fear changed in the form of dogs. I used to maintain a reasonable distance from them. Before learning to swim, I was scared of deep water. I think uncharted territory scares us because of the lack of knowledge. We don't know what to expect from ourselves, as most of our fears are inbuilt, and we don't know what or how we would react in an unknown situation.  Growing up, my fears took various forms and eventually, I got over them because either I had to face them or I had gained knowl

Isn't Social Media Exhausting?

Let's make things simpler and avoid science stuff. Social media has created a delusional world around us, which we cannot see but has a great impact on our lives. You might think you are just scrolling through your feed or reels, but that my friend is not it. There is more to social media than what meets the eye. How many people's lives match with what they show on different platforms? The answer is NONE. How easy it is to fake things on social media. A couple of weeks ago, I was feeling low because almost everyone I followed was posting travel stories and I was sitting at home. Some posted pictures of a school reunion and others showed how magnificent their life was because they were sitting in an elegantly decorative café/restaurant. The cherry on top, I met a friend who updated the status quo pro about mutual people's lives and I had an existential crisis, followed by FOMO and low self-esteem.  Upon confiding in a friend, we concluded that our(Mine and hers) social media

Climax is the most important thing out of all!

Last month, I read A Tale of Time Being by Ruth Ozeki. It was a well-written fiction novel with a skillful mixture of Zen practice and Science theory. When I picked up the book, I wasn't sure what to expect, and the universe indeed surprises you when you least expect it. The climax had me hooked and increased the value of the process. In other words, it was worth my while.  The ending plays an important role in almost everything. When was the last time you were taken aback by the climax of a movie or a play? As if, you went inside the theater thinking it's a romantic movie with a dramatic ending, but ended up witnessing a jaw-dropping shocker. That's what we call a well-written and directed movie. The ending can change the whole narrative of the journey and leave a lasting impression.  And I guess that goes for relationships as well. I don't think, the first impression is the last impression. It doesn't matter how you start a relationship because the journey and the

I don’t want to write anymore… I am done!!!

The last few months of last year were quiet and eventful for me. I felt numerous things and they changed me. I almost feel anew, like a new version of me. I call this timeline: The Villain Era. The transition to villain requires surpassing the victim era. And I guess I passed it very quietly, without anyone noticing!!  I stopped writing in the name of writer’s block, I stopped expressing myself in the name of an ignorant bunch, and I stopped sharing my thoughts in the name of the wrong crowd. I disappeared from everywhere. Some who were genuinely concerned called and asked about my whereabouts, and the rest just waited for me to reappear.  While I taught myself to keep my opinion to myself and not to hand out suggestions until they are asked, I gained knowledge about other things that I didn’t pay attention to before. It was a roller pager ride for me because I wasn’t ready for the naked truth that was coming my way.  It was during that time I realized, I don’t want to talk too much ab

The Guest List of My Wedding

Over a decade ago, I had seen a wonderful movie titled 'Love Breakup Zindagi'. It remains one of my favourites, despite the limited impact at the box office. It unfolds a not-so-complicated yet unique love story drama. The lead actors are invited to their best friend's wedding, a private celebration with a selected few. Starring Dia Mirza and Zayed Khan, this movie left a lasting impact on me due to its elegant storytelling, painting each character with vivid depth and creating an amazing blend. The movie isn't excessively dramatic, but it masterfully intertwines twists, romance, comedy and a mature happy ending. I've lost count of how many times I've watched it, yet each viewing reignites a positive feeling about the concept of weddings. After all, weddings are fun, marriages are hard. See, wedding functions are a sacred affair. I don't believe in inviting acquaintances or family members I don't genuinely care about - And vice versa. And I would hate to