The Queen of Random Things

It has only been a month in 2023 and I guess I have learned one of my biggest lessons of the year. It is amazing how many things you can learn when you are open to possibilities. A couple of months ago I lost one of my close friends. The trauma of losing the person was huge and impacted me greatly, but what scared me the most was the fear of losing myself in the process. For the longest time, I didn't face reality because I hated it and I didn't want to accept it. I ran out as soon as I was done with my work and lost myself in the middle of the crowd, where I could avoid my thoughts. The thing about sorrow is: The more you push it down thinking it will go, the more strongly it bounces back from left and right. I knew I had to sit alone and face it. A part of me hated the weak version of myself and I couldn't bear to see myself so vulnerable on losing the person.  I didn't like that version of me and even people around me were not able to accept me. I realized I had to b

I take birthdays seriously. I believe a birthday is the one day in a year specially designated to you as your new year and a festival for others to celebrate your existence. It's one day of the year you don't have to share it with anyone (Well, I mean, you do share it, but not in a massive number!) We become a year older and wiser on birthdays, but I don't see it negatively. Birthdays are an opportunity to see how people feel or think of you. Count me fussy, but I have blocked, shouted, fought, and taunted my friends for not wishing me or forgetting my birthday. In my opinion, birthday jang khatam kar sakta hai. If the leaders of the UK, the USA, China, and Russia had wished Hitler on his birthday in April, WW2 wouldn't last for 6 years. I mean birthdays are special, you can't deny that! Yes, I have pushed my other blogs to re-establish birthdays' impact. People come up with the darndest excuses these days, and it annoys me to the core. I have heard, "I am